When we grow older, making mistakes will get us more severe treatment or reaction rather than being forgiven or overlooked. That's when we realised growing up isn't all that great and we all wished that we were younger once again where what we do would receive forgiveness and understanding easily. "Oh they are just kids!" , "They don't know much yet", such phrases that often surfaced. Hence, inevitably many of the kids or teenager like us are forced to harden up in order to become an adult that we cannot avoid and have to start being able to face harsher treatments for the wrong moves we did. These moves were taken much more lightly when we did the same things as a kid.
We are all still a youngster or kid in mind that are yet to fully developed or ready to become mature enough to take on this 'adult' role that have a heavy responsibility. However, not a lot of people will be sympathized of that, most would just tell you that you have to face it, grow up, this is the true reality, blah blah blah. Being an adult would mean we will receive less help as we are ought to be more capable of doing it on our own (presumed by other people) and we have to figure out ourselves. BUT the truth is, at least for me, I still need lots of help, that's why I do not want to become an adult I still need lots of guidance. The word independent is a dreadful word to me. Yes, you might disagree but that's my thought. That's why in this world, when we are all suddenly thrown somewhere where we have to pick ourselves up, which forces our young mind to have no choice but to toughen up. This brings me to my main highlight of this post, where I would like to show my gratitude to some situations (that I could recall currently) where helped were received when things were seemingly dull.
Some people are like angels (too cheesy) or like the source of light you often hear that you will see at the end of a tunnel, that shines on you. These are the people who would still give you a helping hand where we would often melt because of their actions as we grow up we seldom received such kindness that we all longed for. Therefore, it always warms our hearts when someone gives us a pushed or pulled us up when we were unable to retrieve ourselves back. Especially when we become adults if we received even a small help or act of kindness or should I say a feeling of having someone to be able to help you through patiently like how it was, in the past when we were just kids.
One of the heartwarming incidents that I still remembered were when I took up a crash course on Chemistry in school before the start of the first semester of my Polytechnic life. I totally had no Chemistry background and do not know a single thing about it as I did not take that subject during Secondary school. It was a few day course (I think) where I could not gasp some of the concepts that the lecturer was teaching. Its not a really good feeling when you don't know a single thing and some people around you just leave you there on your own to manage it yourself. However, at this moment of despair, seemingly my SOS signal seems to be heard by some angels that were sent to me.
They patiently taught me the really basic of it and simplified it so that I was able to understand. Little do they know how grateful I was and glad when I finally understood how it works. Even though the memory of the incident gets blurry but the feelings that were felt still linger on.
Another incident was during my chosen module, Photography, where I was in a class where I do not know anyone except an acquaintance I made during other school event. When our teacher starts to teach us about the manual mode of a camera and tell us to try it out ourselves in class, I was like, OH SHIT I DON'T UNDERSTAND A SINGLE SHIT ON WHAT SHE JUST SAID. Oh dear, and I have no one around me that I could ask. AND AT THIS MOMENT, the person that I am acquainted to seem to have magically sense the distress in me AND ASKED, "Do you know/understand how to use the things she just taught?" In my mind I was like 'OMO thank god, this person saved me from my loneliness, misery and confusion!!"(sounds dramatic but you get the gist of it, that were the feelings I felt at that moment). SO he said, "Ok come, let me teach you". *Knees down on floor internally* Hallelujah!! It was the turning point for me for that class (ok that's over-exaggerated). From then on, my gratitude for the person held on. Little did he knew, that I was really grateful.
Its small acts from people like this whom voluntarily wants to help you without a price, FOC, they just want to help you out when they can. These are some of the people where we can learn something from. Sometimes, its not easy to be as selfless as certain people.
I would like to thank *holding a trophy behind a column* (like star awards) anyone that have did any really small simple acts that had help me in some ways. Hope this post has struck something in your heart. Till the next time.
