Time Flys

Having my last exam paper on Physics and Bio MCQ next week and it will be the official end of my papers!! Even though I have already declared holiday by watching my dramas.

 I am worry about what might happen after we leave our secondary school... We need to start choosing our ideal course. Choosing the courses base on our interest or passion for it but for my case none of the courses, areas , fields or whatever seems to interest me its just like I don't even know what I like or want in life. I have no goals at all.. It all seems so hectic to be able to make a decision that you won't regret just by choosing it for the sake of choosing and time is getting short !! I still can't make a decision. I don't really have any strengths in anything particular and to worsen the situation  I am slow very slow at learning things and adapting to a new environment which is one particular problem. When you see other people being explicit about what they truly want to do or get in and they all seem so determine about it that sometimes it scares me.. Like where have all those jokers that once I know that are just so carefree suddenly became all grown up and serious about their future and dreams. I am really afraid of growing up as you have to take on more responsibilities and your mistakes might not be seen as lightly as it is now. People becoming more mature doesn't it make it less fun? How I wish humans and things can still stay the same like they are still being able to treat things casually, makes ridiculous jokes, pranks and teasing one another. Still thinking in a teenager manner instead of going too in depth about life. I am not clear about what I am talking about the in depth part but its just that the topics or the way you talk might be different compared to how you use to be.

I always wonder why will adult act in a certain way when they were once too a teenager? Can't they think like the similar way as we do now? Shouldn't them be more understanding and stuffs? WHY I DON'T GET IT !! Maybe its because of their provision (Poa haha) of experiences that they gain..

Lastly, I hope that we will all enjoy our moments together and spend them well !!!